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Post by Mikey Sixx on Mar 23, 2009 20:40:00 GMT -5
I figured, being on this ship, would calm my nerves in the slightest way possible, because I've not been very stable back home. I figured a vacation from John would let me open up a bit more, and I've come to realize, thatthat is not how this works in one bit, no no no. not in the least bit.I'm still afraid of him. I still can't sleep. When I do sleep I wake up screaming and sweaty. I can't take this torture, and I don't know how to make it all stop. I know one way, but no matter how many times I try, I cannot succeed. Someone always stops it, or "saves me". I think I need a therapist, but I'm on a stupid boat now, a stupid boat with no friends, and no therapists. Sure there's a counsellor, and a bar, but really that won't get me very far, now will it? I just wish there was a way I could stop this madness, stop my night terrors, release my insecurities and make at least one damn friend this year. I know it won't happen, or it's not likely too anyway but I can atleast try, right?
"TeddyBear"
First Class ;; Cabin 21
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